We've been busy. Tyler and Violet have gone through various illnesses throughout the past few weeks, and we're bidding on houses, and trying to figure out how to make Christmas Christmasy without going home to California to be with our extended families this year.
I think Tyler and I were both a ball of nerves going into the appointment. There have been all of these little wormy thoughts and fears in our minds that this pregnancy might not actually be happening as it should-- still in disbelief that everything might being going as planned. It's really hard having gone through a miscarriage before to not constantly have this little thought in the back of your head that something might be wrong.
I'm keeping my head above water, still exercising a couple times a week doing Zumba--which always sounds like a horrid idea when I'm sitting at home on the couch feeling lazy and pregnant, but always makes me feel like a million bucks when I'm actually out there moving around. Energy is pretty good, spirits are high, time is moving forward, and we're somewhere around 21-22 weeks-- a little more than 5 months into this thing.
Mid-pregnancy is a super exciting and slightly stressful time because it's when you get to go in for the huge show-stopper ultrasound.
But, thankfully, we watched the silver-toned screen flicker for about an hour and saw this amazingly active and alive and seemingly perfect little person show off-- feet, hands, nose, head, kidneys, heart, and a spine like a fish with tiny little bones, all in row, curving down to a little round bum-- all moving in the dark.
It's incredibly amazing. Shockingly amazing. Every little thing right where it should be; punchy little hands wave about and explore the face and find the nose and mouth. There are fingers and toes. There are eyes. Bones and joints.
We're on our way.
And she is she. A girl. A second little girl for us.
I feel like I'm the luckiest person in the whole world because I get to have not one but two girls to raise and watch grow up.
I never had any sisters, although four brothers were quite fun. I am excited for Violet, and for this little baby girl-- that they will have each other as sisters. They can argue and sneak around and call each other when they need an opinion about something. Is that what sisters do? I wouldn't know. I'm excited to find out.
